So, I was pondering over the age-old existential question - Who am I, and what am I doing here?
For far too long, I have believed that we all have God within us and that what we do is an extension of Him offering us choices and us mortal people making them. How the pattern gets woven is based on our choices, and the outcome of each dictates how things proceed. But if that is true, why are we not all able to do everything, and why aren't we always able to make those choices correctly.
Out of the bat, the latter part is easy to answer. Our determination of choice being correct or not always comes after the fact - once we see the effect of the option, we are in a better place to determine if we made the correct choice. If I order a new dish in a restaurant, I won't know whether it tastes good until after I've tasted it. And I can only taste it after I've ordered it. And I can only order it after I've made a choice. If it tastes great, I made an excellent choice. If it tastes terrible, I won't be happy with my choice. Knowing the outcome earlier takes away from having a choice and the joy of discovery or the learning that comes from pain. And it's those emotions, those feelings, that make us human.
The former, however, is slightly tricky. I think we all definitely have varying degrees of ability to do what we want. Varying degrees depend on how much time we put into learning something. While some of us may have an innate talent, there isn't an art we can't learn if we're ready to put our mind & effort into it. If we are all capable of doing everything all the time, once again, it takes away from life in the sense that there would be monotony since there won't be anything to learn or talk about.
So if I can answer my own questions - what's the problem with God, and why am I even writing this blog?
Well - the problem I see is this. While it's all good to have choices, the end goal is nearly nonexistent. It feels like an experiment where various variables are thrown out to see what becomes. So being omnipotent, omnipresent, and almighty - basically, God feels someone who's just bored and is scrolling through a shorts feed checking up on what each person is doing in their life at times marking the like sending his love and downvoting some choices, ensuring we learn from them and don't make them again.
